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Post by Camille Ferth on Jul 27, 2008 22:58:43 GMT -4
She calmed herself slightly as Jacob began to rock her. As he spoke, she exhaled, burying her face in his chest. God, I feel like such an idiot. she said, sighing. She didn't know what else to say, so she sat there, letting him hold her and rock her back and forth. It felt good to hug him, and she didn't want to stop.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 27, 2008 23:03:57 GMT -4
"God, no," he whispered. "Why do you feel like an idiot, Camille? You shared something so important... you're so brave, so strong. Camille, you're a brilliant person," he told her. He meant every word. He was happy that he could hold her like this and not be pushed away. He was so happy that he had found her. He kissed her forehead as he continued to walk her. He knew that it was wrong to care for her - it went against his nature - but he knew that he did. It wasn't love - that's not how he would say it - but it was something... it counted to him.
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Post by Camille Ferth on Jul 27, 2008 23:06:00 GMT -4
She sighed as he spoke. For ever trusting him. I should have listened to what the other girls said. But I didn't. And I ended up like this. she said, sighing. She wanted to say something else. To tell him how she truly felt about him, but she was afraid to. She didn't know what he'd say. Jacob? she asked, hesitant.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 27, 2008 23:09:46 GMT -4
"Camille, you didn't know any better," he said softly. "I'd have done the same thing. When you like someone, it matters not what someone else thinks. All that matters are you feelings. It... you would have trusted him and liked him and this was the outcome. It's kismet," he said, smiling a little bit. "Besides, if he wasn't such a jagg off, I'd have never met you. So as angry as I am that he hurt you, I'm glad that I found you." He was silent until she said his name. "Yes?" He asked, curious.
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Post by Camille Ferth on Jul 27, 2008 23:13:32 GMT -4
She smiled as he spoke of being glad that he met her, and about not mattering what others thought when you liked someone. She hesitated when he responded to her saying his name. You don't love me, do you? she said, hesitant as she spoke. She had a feeling he'd say no. After all, he did love Bella. Don't lie. she said, hesitant once more. She was able to tell when people were lying. Maybe it was just a vampire thing. But she wanted to know how he felt about her.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 27, 2008 23:18:52 GMT -4
Jacob took a deep breath. He didn't want to answer it. He was upset at her question; he really didn't want to answer. It wasn't going to be what she wanted to hear. He took another deep breath, steadying himself. "Camille, I like you a lot. But is it love? Camille, I'm sixteen. I don't know. Not now. Could it be one day? Yeah, maybe. But, I don't know." He was so sorry. He buried his head in her neck. He was very upset; he didn't want her to hate him.
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Post by Camille Ferth on Jul 27, 2008 23:21:44 GMT -4
She listened as he spoke, sighing. Feeling him bury his face in her neck, she buried hers in his neck. At least you're honest. she said, closing her eyes. She didn't know if she loved him or not. She sort of did. But she was glad that he was honest. He could have lied and said yes, though she knew he'd be lying and trying to make her happy. She did like him a lot, too. You're lucky. she said, changing the subject. You get to age. I don't. she said, sighing. I can't ever be a werewolf.. And of course, you'd never want to be a vampire. And I don't blame you. she said, laughing slightly.
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Post by Jacob Black on Aug 3, 2008 22:12:30 GMT -4
Jacob listened to Camille talk. He tensed at the word of aging. "I'm not aging for quite some time," Jacob whispered, pulling away from her. "Werewolves... we don't age until we stop phasing. That's going to be quite a while for me," he whispered. It seemed like the vampire population in Forks had tripled since he first phased. "I mean, it's not a bad thing. I don't look sixteen and I can stop aging if I can ever escape the vampires... If I want, anyway." Jacob wanted to run away as a wolf, if he could escape the words in his mind. "I'm sorry..."
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Post by Camille Ferth on Aug 3, 2008 22:34:38 GMT -4
She listened as he spoke, looking at him when he pulled away. But you'll still age. I won't. she said, listening as he continued. She didn't say anything when he stopped again. She just looked down. Why are you sorry? Jacob.. You're going to age. I'm not. I'm going to live forever and you won't. she said, looking at him, pain showing in her eyes.
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Post by Jacob Black on Aug 7, 2008 23:12:00 GMT -4
"I don't know, really..." Maybe Jacob was developing a Bella complex. She was constantly saying that she was sorry for the most ridiculous things. It drove Jacob (and Edward!) crazy. Actually, more than driving Jacob crazy, it pissed him off. He didn't want her apologies; he wanted her love. "I could choose not to age ever again," Jacob whispered, truthfully. He didn't look at Camille.[/size]
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Post by Camille Ferth on Aug 7, 2008 23:15:37 GMT -4
She was confused a moment. Do.. you mean.. being a vampire? she asked, whispering. She looked at him, noticing that he wouldn't look at her.
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Post by Jacob Black on Aug 8, 2008 15:49:40 GMT -4
Jacob looked up at that, wide eyes. "no, no. Not at all. I mean..." he hesitated, trying to clear his mind. "As long as I'm around a vampire... as long as I phase every once in a while into a wolf... as long as that happens, I'll never age another day for the rest of my life. That's why it's possible for someone to imprint on an infant," he responded, thinking it out.
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Post by Camille Ferth on Aug 8, 2008 15:52:23 GMT -4
She felt slightly relieved when he said no. She didn't know what she'd do if he wanted to be a vampire. She didn't want to risk losing him during the change, and she wouldn't be able to trust herself to change him. She listened as he spoke. .. Imprint on an infant? she wondered.
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Post by Jacob Black on Aug 8, 2008 16:04:47 GMT -4
"Oh. it's this weird thing that some wolves do. It's a little more absolute than love at first site. It's... powerful. The moment you see her, you'll never want anyone else. And sometimes you find yourself meeting a baby or little kid or something and knowing that when they grow up, they're the one. It's... well, it is what it is," he said with a shrug.
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Post by Camille Ferth on Aug 8, 2008 16:17:36 GMT -4
You're not.. planning on doing that, are you? she asked, looking at him. She hoped he wasn't. If he did.. she didn't know what she'd do.
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