Hope for the Dead?! {Alira}

[Alira Sweetnam]

She shook her head when he spoke, resting her head on his chest. Nothing.. I just.. she stopped, sighing. How was she supposed to tell Drake that she was thinking of her ex while kissing him? That wasn't exactly a good thing. It would have been worse if she still liked Jason. Except, she didn't. So it was only slightly better.

[Drake Angel]

Drake pulled Alria closer so that if he had a heart beat she would have surely heard it. "Wana talk about it?" He asked looking down at the girl in his arms. I guess I am here to listen so might as as well start with this. Drake though this with a smile on his face. "Sometimes I wish I knew what you were thinking."

[Alira Sweetnam]

She sighed. Sometimes I wish I couldn't hear what everyone's thinking. she said, sighing. I'm just.. thinking about Jason.. she said, sighing. He was my last boyfriend.. Over 200 years ago, though. He's the one who changed me. she said, but didn't continue. She wasn't sure if she wanted to tell him yet. I suppose I better just tell you.. she said, sighing. She wouldn't look at him. She couldn't. It was hard enough just saying it. I believed him. Everything he told me. Even when he said that he didn't feed off of Humans. He told me he loved me, and I believed him. Except.. she paused.

He was abusive.. And he.. he uh.. raped me.. she said, though it had been harder than she thought. He'd gotten me pregnant, but I hid it from him. By the time he found out, I wasn't seeing him, and he thought that it wasn't his. He was jealous. Though I never had a boyfriend after him. But he didn't believe me. I lost the baby because of him.. she said, stopping. She wouldn't go on. She refused to go on. She wasn't even sure if she said any of it out loud. To her, it seemed as if she thought it all. But she didn't.