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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 19, 2008 2:29:01 GMT -4
Adriana was, quite possibly, losing her mind. She'd come home for her aunt to ask where she'd been, and Adriana'd answered normally. And then she'd very nearly strangled the life out of her almost-mother. Before she could move to touch her, she ran out the door. She wasn't sure where she was running, but tears streamed down her face, hitting the bite on her neck. The wound was still raw and open. As the salt hit it she shied uncomfortably. Whirling through the darkness of trees--how had she gotten here? she could never run that fast before--she tripped over a knot in a root and collapsed to the ground. Her shoulder, sore as anything (healed impossibly fast...what was going on?!), yelped in protest. Angry tears lit the corners of her hazel eyes. She punched the ground in discomfort, feeling anger bubble up so much inside her she felt her spit was boiling. I want to know what's going on with MY OWN BODY! she mentally screamed at the sky. She screamed in frustration.
And then it happened. She didn't know how...or where...or anything, but suddenly she just....exploded. Her clothes went everywhere (oh well, they were covered in blood anyways) and Adriana, not knowing what was happening, closed her eyes tight. Fur erupted on every inch of her body--Adriana was sure by now she had lost her mind--her eyes reshaped themselves, claws forced their way out of her fingertips---or paws? WHAT?!
Not knowing what she had become, Adriana ran for the lake. Scampering in she looked at her reflection, instantly distorted by ripples across the surface. When the water settled, she nearly died of a heart attack right then and there.
She was a wolf. Exceedingly large and...actually a very pretty wolf, but....wait...SHE WAS A WOLF! She tried to calm herself, sitting on the ground, tucking her tail under herself. Hmm...alright...this is....new. She managed, ever so slightly, to retain some ounce of...something. She sure as hell couldn't call it sanity. It was all lost when this snarky thought tiptoed into her mind: What am I going to tell Lysander?. She thought this was an appropriate moment to scream fuck at the top of her lungs. However, SHE COULDN'T TALK! She growled in frustration...she'd never ever experienced so much anger before. The force of it scared her. She wasn't a heart cut out for passion.
She turned and ran. Trees flitted by...she had to admit this body was fast, and agile. She hit something, warm and hard and solid. Her body screeched, recognizing family. She looked up, and her golden hazel eyes burned confusion and sorrow into Jacob Black's own obsidian gaze.
{WHOO!! I never thought I could write that....PHEW}
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 19, 2008 21:44:07 GMT -4
Jacob had been in his wolf form when Adriana had transformed. He had been trying to escape; what was going on with him and Camille, anyway? He needed time to think. So Jacob had transformed (it was quite easy, once you got a hang of it) and had started running. He made sure that he hid his large body in the forest - although it was still against tribal law to kill wolves, he wouldn't put it past anyone to take a shot at him. Jacob wouldn't be taking any chances.
Jacob was lost in his own thoughts when suddenly someone else's thoughts invaded his mind. He recognized the voice; it was Adriana Call. He quickly silenced his own thoughts and cleared his mind. He closed his eyes and watched where she was. If she were in any danger of losing control, he would make sure she didn't do anything stupid. He could be wherever she was in just a minute, tops. Jacob loved the speed.
And then, she slammed into him. He wasn't quite prepared, but he stood still. Jacob looked back into her eyes, staring at her harshly. He gave a wolfish smile. Hello, Adriana, Jacob thought. He had heard the stories that they could communicate this way. He believed them to be true.
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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 19, 2008 22:32:03 GMT -4
Adriana turned wide, fearful eyes up to Jacob's. Her mental voice shook and trembled, and her muscles seized up down her spine, sending ripples courding through her body visibly. Everything, for an instant, shuddered, and Adriana could feel herself ripping apart again. She bit her lip, forcing herself to stay as she was. And then, she was still. She turned back to Jacob again. I know I'm supposed to be terrified, but I'm kind of...enjoying myself. Is that bad? Does that make me a freak of the werewolf world? She wondered if her taking so well to her new form was indicitive of some kind of insanity...
Insanity brought her back to her impossible relationship with Lysander. Her mind scoured over every inch of his face in her memory, over every conversation they'd ever had, over the way it felt when he carried her, in the forest, after James attacked her...
Belatedly, she realized Jake could hear all her thoughts. She blanked her entire mind of everything but raw emotion. Giving a wolfy gasp, she looked up at him.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 19, 2008 22:39:19 GMT -4
Jacob let out a wolfy chuckle. It sounded from his throat and only a wolf, or a wolf expert, would be able to tell that it was a happy tone, not an aggressive one. You're not a freak, he promised his new found pack member. He crouched down low, jumping from side to side, wagging his tail playfully. Jacob was very playful today. It can be fun, he added, continuing to joke around.
Jacob saw. He was totally grossed out. He let a howl out, jumping back. He immediately ceased and desisted with his playful mood. He whimpered, crouching down as he placed his paws over his eyes. He whined louder, trying to get it out of his mind. No, no, he moaned, whimpering still.
And, before he could stop it, his own mental images of him with Camille -their kisses- filled his mind. No, he moaned. No. I can't... we can't...
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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 19, 2008 22:47:07 GMT -4
Adriana smiled, returning his playful stance for a while. Then she saw him shrink up as his own vampiress haunted his dreams. She crept over to him gently--Adriana was nothing if not gentle--and brushed her furry cheek along his. Hearing his whine, she returned it and curled up perpendicular to him, resting her head on his back. You can, you know. In the end, no one can tell you who you're supposed to be. Camille's lips played themselves across her memories again and again. Obviously.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 19, 2008 22:50:26 GMT -4
Jacob felt comforted when Adriana brushed her cheek against his. Are you okay? he asked, thinking that he probably should have asked her that to begin with. He remembered being absolutely terrified - yet thrilled - on his first time of transforming. He imagined that even though she was excited, she was also a bit scared.
He hesitated, seeing that boy's perfect face in his mind again. He saw it through Adriana's eyes; the perfect planes of his face, the beauty that he let seep out of him. Jacob groaned. He didn't want to feel that way over a guy. Jacob paused for a moment, opening his eyes and looking at Adriana. How're you gonna tell him about this?
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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 19, 2008 22:58:06 GMT -4
Adriana gave a wolfy snort when she saw how her feelings affected Jake. She immediately closed off that bit of her mind. Luckily for you, it's not so weird for a girl to be so affectionate over another girl. We get to appreciate beauty in our own sex for awhile without getting all sexually confuzzled. She gave a gusty sigh. I don't know. How to tell him, that is. In terms of this itself--I was half-expecting it anyways, and it turns out that I'd been around so many vampires, more than I knew at the time--Edward Cullen, Lysander, Victoria, and James, obviously, she thought, gesturing to the only halfway healed hole on the side of her neck (not even her powers of healing could close up that deep a vampire bite in a day) that I ended up speeding up my own transformation. But I'm alright with it...after my mom's accident I had to be able to deal with change, you know?
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 19, 2008 23:03:20 GMT -4
Jacob snarled in a feral, truly scary way at the mention of Edward's name. Bella, Jacob thought. Bella, my Bella. Not his Bella. He's.... he stole her. Not my Bella, he growled. He was so mad. Jacob howled, rearing and growling and snarling. Jacob was pissed. Jacob took a moment to calm himself down, though images of ripping Edward to shreds still were in his head. He wished...
Jacob whimpered as she rubbed her neck with her paw. He nuzzled it gently, showing affection to someone for once in his life. Yeah, I know. I'm sorry, he whimpered, thinking it all in his head. I'm sorry you had to deal with all of that... and now this...
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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 19, 2008 23:13:50 GMT -4
At his explosion induced by Edward's name Adriana sat quiet. She watched him with a placid eye, and as he seemed to run out of steam, knocked him to the ground. Hard, but gentle. Adriana couldn't bring herself to be harsh. I know, Jake, I get it. Shh. Adriana was soothing, it was why kids loved her so much. They never cried when she was around.
She sighed sadly. She'd never have her own babies now...she couldn't bring herself to even imagine a future with anyone but Lysander. Shaking off the thought, knowing Jake might use it against her, she leaned against him a bit. He was warm, it felt nice to have warmth on the freezing scar. (I'm saying that since it was cold against a normal human's skin, it'd be freezing against hers.) It felt nice just being here with him...to forget about romance and all the complications and just be friends with someone she cared for. It was a nice change.
She snorted. This? This is one of the better things that has happened to me, excluding Lysander. It's nice to be able to have some just know...to not worry about having to choke out all the hard things I'd have to tell you for you to be as close as we are now. It's simple, and easy, and I like it. Even if it'll ostracize me from the love of my life forever. Sadness clouded her eyes and her thoughts.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 19, 2008 23:24:23 GMT -4
Jacob whimpered. If he wasn't a guy, Jacob would have been crying right now. Instead, he held the tears back. He howled, nose in the air, a low and mournful cry. Jacob was so upset over the Bella and Edward thing. She was so close to being my girl. She was so close. We could have been.. we would have been perfect together, Adriana. Make it stop; make him go away, he begged, another howl escaping his throat. Jacob was upset beyond belief. Jacob was hurt. His heart had a hole in it the size of... well, basically, he didn't have a heart.
Jacob needed friends; he liked this. This pack is all about family, he told Jacob. It's one of the...Look, we've got rules as a pack, he said slowly. He was pretty much pack leader. It went off of blood right. And Jacob was blood thirsty for Edward Cullen, so it all worked out. Revenge was sometimes the biggest motivator.
I think if you really wanted a blo-lea-vamp- if you really wanted Lysander forever, you could work it out, his thoughts were a whisper as his own eyes hazed over. He couldn't get Bella Swan out of his mind, as usual. But what about Camille? I've screwed my life up, he whimpered, knowing that no matter what Adriana said, it'd still be true tomorrow.
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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 20, 2008 9:57:23 GMT -4
Adriana disentangled her long fuzzy limbs from Jacob's. he watched him interestedly, her head cocked to one side, one ear raised. Poor Jacob. Adriana wasn't sure what to do, she'd dealt with so many emotional problems. Just not this. Barely, her tail brushed Jake's shoulder. She thought, all in all, he might want to know at least someone was here with him.
Shh, Jake. I know, I can see it too. Look, after everything she deserves to be with you. She deserves to grow up and have kids and die eventually. But, she belongs with him. He's changed her, and unintentionally, so calm yourself for a minute. But, just by being with her, he's changed her so that you couldn't be with her now. It wouldn't work...not with memories of Edward in her mind. Not so unlike herself and Seth. She almost smacked herself with her long tail. Now he'd know that she felt something for Seth too. Dammit.
Don't kill Edward. Maybe you could take him, I'm sure you're an even match and all, so don't get your knickers in a twist. But could you really do that to Bella? She'd forgive you for it, but she'd be dying. In fact, if she asked me to kill her so she could be with him, it might be hard to refuse. Nice save on all the deragatory vampire nicknames, by the way. And maybe it'll work out...but see, I'm not the one with the problem. I've loved his smell from since we met--she took care to keep her thoughts strictly platonic--and I like the sweetness...it's just how my mom's room used to smell, she always had lilies. And, as I'm sure you can tell, I'm kind. I'm not motivated to hate...the thing that scares me the most about this form is the anger that comes with it...I don't get angry, Jake. I'm so strong now that I don't know what'd happen if I did. I don't hate them, Jake, they hate me. Lysander doesn't want me as bad, I think...I think he'd rest for finding someone of his own kind. She wasn't a crier, either. All she felt was cold, dark, sickness, closing in on every part of her mind. She was surrounded by night in her own mind...her body temperature actually lowered enough to where the scar's temperature wasn't noticeable. Her heart even slowed down at the realizaiton, like it was preparing itself for death. Oh, she'd want deah if what she said were true.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 20, 2008 17:21:56 GMT -4
Jacob whispered to Adriana's words in his mind, thinking about each one and what each one meant. Seth...? Jacob wondered, but said nothing more than his friend's name. He let it go, he didn't want to know that Seth was hurting same as he was. He didn't want to know that anyone else could feel the way that he felt now. He didn't want this cross to bear. He just wanted to be free from pain and sin and Bella.
With Camille, his thoughts were barely a whisper, With Camille, I'm sorry. I'm so, so very sorry. I don't care.... like she cares. i don't feel the way that she does. It's not right what I did. I stole passion, I stole time. For what? Because I hurt, because Bella's ghost won't leave me be. I stole kisses and I probably even stole her heart. It wasn't right, it wasn't fair. I don't know how to apologize to Camille, either, because I don't know how to tell her that I don't feel the same way. Aren't I a horrible person? No, wait, don't answer that....
Jacob curled closer to his new found friend. I wouldn't hurt your vampire. I wouldn't hurt... Edward... if IBella asked me not to. But I still want her to be mine. I still want to be... everything she needs. I could be the sun, the air. I could be everything that she wants from this life. Yet I can't be any of it. Adriana, is it any wonder that I feel so crazy? he wondered.
Jacob curled closer to Adriana, still, if that were possible. He nudged her with his cold nose. It's gonna work out just right for you. You can do this. You're such a good person, Adriana.
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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 21, 2008 11:02:39 GMT -4
Adriana's eyes widened. She blew a gusty approximation of a sigh through her snout. Camille...oh, poor Camille. Jake...if I may say so... she hedged delicately, her voice treading lightly. Her expression was troubled as she found a particularly awkward memory of Jake and Camille in Camille's bedroom. Vampires aren't so prone to falling in love. When they do, it's usually this huge grand sweeping affair. And Camille doesn't act like that with you...forgive me, I'm sure she thinks of you fondly, but I don't think she loves you. Vampires lust to, you know. She made a funny noise, half a whine and half a distress call. If I meet her, this will be so awkward now... she said, and gave Jake an approximation of a wolfy smile.
She shook her head gently, although her feelings were much more vehement. She was uneasy in this form...understandably. If she moved too fast, she was afraid of transforming back. And she didn't have any clothes on. Nah, Jake, you're not terrible. Normal people fall in love a lot before they settle down. And everyone has that one torch they carry. You felt something for her, it's not like you were using her. Besides, you're a sixteen year old boy and she's a beautiful woman. Sorry, Jake, not that I don't respect your self control, but I'm sure it's not that good. She smiled at him crookedly.
Jake should feel crazy. She'd be disturbed if he wasn't. And Seth...oh well. With Seth it'll never work out. I already know that, I figured it out before I fell too hard. He doesn't know how I feel, so it's all good. And he's always had a schoolboy crush on me...it hasn't gotten any stronger. And Jake, by God if this didn't make you feel crazy I'd be more worried. I know you wouldn't hurt Lysander...or Edward. And I get it, Jake. Bella...she knows what she's doing. And believe it or not...I think she feels just as bad. And I bet Edward does too.
She started a little bit as his caresses, honestly shocked. I'm a good person? she thought. Well...thank you, I suppose. And I suppose I'll figure it out eventually. Maybe I won't end up with Lysander, I think you're forgetting I'm even younger than you are. She looked at Jake for a second. Nope, nope, nope, he's someone else's. Her thoughts stayed once more before she disciplined herself more harshly.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jul 25, 2008 14:15:15 GMT -4
I'm sorry, he whispered in his thoughts. He listened to her words and, mostly, he agreed. It was a good day. It was better than a good day, really, now that Jacob had found someone else to spend this shape with. He enjoyed it; he needed Adriana. She was his friend now.
Cullen doesn't feel bad at all, he roared in his head. He growled, angry. He knew that Cullen didn't feel bad. He started thinking about his conversations that he had with Cullen, how mad he had gotten. I'm afraid that Bella doesn't even want to be my friend. All I want is her friendship, if that's what it... if that's what she can offer me. I need her. I need Bella. I can't be me without her. I need Bella. You know us; all those days in my garage. Everyone said we were gonna be married. Adriana, I know she felt it too. I know that I'm not the only one who felt this way, he murmured. He buried his head under his large paws, hiding himself from the world. In human form, he didn't think. In human form, he was too broken and bruised to care. In wolf form, Jacob reacted horribly to everything.
You've got all the time in the world, Adriana. You've got all the time you need. Don't worry about anything but now. I wish you hadn't had to have gone through this, he thought, meaning the transformation. Jacob thought through all of the stories. They all said that there were no female wolves. Times changed, he guessed.
I wonder how many more of us there will be, he mused. Jacob knew that his birth right was pack leader. Jacob knew the responsibilities that he had to shoulder. He just wished he didn't have to.
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Post by Adriana Call on Jul 25, 2008 23:17:03 GMT -4
The animosity in his thoughts frightened her, she physically recoiled from him an inch. Tilting her head to one side, she studied him. The fire in his eyes was there, but it disguised awful pain. She whined. Aw, Jake... She scooted close to him, close to the fuzzy warmth of him. {I love using the word fuzzy ;D} She sighed, resting her chin over his back. He's taking all the human things from her. You don't think he feels bad about that? Believe it or not, he does want the best for Bella. That's part of love's definition. He just won't leave Bella as long as she wants him. She sighed. I'm the worst werewolf ever, she thought. I happen to like my bloodsuckers. She sighed.
Honest surprise swept through her. I don't mind being like this. If anything it's a relief to not be so alone all the time. Besides, it kind of...fits, you know? I like being so fast and fuzzy. And she was fuzzy, her hair was down to her waist as a human and so appropriately long in her wolf form. But she grew serious at the thought of more. Victoria and James--this actual bloodsucking coven, are recruiting, making new vampires. And I know Dimitri's got a gang of vamps and humans, but they're like the Cullens, they're not changing the humans. The Cullens aren't changing humans. With that many vampires around I think we'll see a lot more werewolves very soon. She felt Jake's surprise at her knowledge. See? It pays to be nice to vampires.
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